I gave birth to my daughter in January. The care given to me was okay during my pregnancy. I had many challenges along the way but did feel heard by my community midwife. It was mostly during my hospital visits that I found my maternity care most challenging. I used [my inner] resources to support my choices and counteract HCPs coercive language (high risk), there were constant barriers to my choices. Due to my age, the size of my previous babies and the fact that baby was Breech and often felt emotionally manipulated to make decisions that didn't sit well with me. I was determined to have my baby at home, I did have a supportive Healthcare Professional that helped me on my journey.I had the agency and confidence to challenge where necessary but you do need to be strong. I understood a lot of their advice and took this on board as I was mindful that ultimately I wanted both me and baby to be safe. I was advised to be induced at 39 weeks again based on age, size of baby (9lb) and possibly breech position. Baby decided to move head down but I was still advised to be induced. After weighing up my choices I decided to do this. My induction appeared to be going well. I choose to be induced using the rods as this would open my cervix naturally. I also requested a private room due to my anxiety. This was agreed by the consultant, however on the day I was told that I was not able to do so due to a mother losing her baby. This mother was using this room. My natural induction did not happen as I was told that I required an emergency C section due to babies heart beat disappearing while I was on the monitor. I informed my husband straight away as he made his way to the hospital. I was very scared as I was told that they could not wait for my husband. They also said that they might have to put me to sleep which I refused. My husband arrived just in time. It was very scary and emotionally where I was constantly told to stop panicking as my heart rate was high. This was out of my control and I felt that there was little understanding as to how scared and frightened I was. My daughter was delivered by C-section. My first ever.ย